Sunday, February 20, 2011

hurm....

Aku perlu berubah?

Kaca Pecah Shit!!!!

Ok.. Aku decide utk tidak meletakkan perkataan crappy di depan setiap post aku, sbb kalau byk sgt crap pun crap jugak. hahaha! Post kali ni sebenarnye adalah utk muhasabah diri aku sendiri.. Lately, aku byk berfikir tentang diri aku dan ape hala tuju aku dlm hidup yg xtentu nieh. kadang2 aku rasa mcm aku da achieve something but kadang2 tu rasa mcm aku ni masih lagi zero.

1. Know The People Around You To Know Yourself
Orang2 disekeliling aku sekarang ni byk membuka mata aku tentang realiti diri sendiri. Mcm mana nk handle diri sendiri dgn lebih matang. Aku mengaku, aku sekarang x sama dengan aku yg dulu. Aku dulu lebih dependable on others. Tp aku skarang nieh, rasanye2 tahap kebergantungan aku dengan org tu xtau la berkurang ke x. Tp aku still trying to be a person yg xbergantung sgt kat org. Memang payah nk adapt dgn benda baru tp kalau xadapt mcm mna nk move forward? sbb situation akan sentiasa berubah. Ada masanya kita kena act first think later. Most of the time. Setelah menjalani sesi "pecah kaca" semalam, aku rasa lebih relieve sebab dapat tau realiti kehidupan aku dari sudut pandangan orang lain. Aku jenis yg lebih suka dengar org kritik aku depan2 dari buat talam dua muka. Aku rasa orang mcm nieh lebih jujur dan lebih ikhlas nk berkawan. N aku baru sedar, I've made some enemies yg xsepatutnya pun jd enemies. Dsbbkan aku dibutakan dengan luarannya, aku xnmpk dalamannya. The most important thing is I know that i was a jerk! Thanks, walaupun agak pedih kritikan2 tu tp org ckp, the truth always hurt.

2. Shattering Glass
Ok, basically xdela pecah kaca byk mane pun.. Just a conformation to my point of view je.. Aku da memang tau yg perangai mamat tu mcm tu tp utk kita judge org based on their past tu bukanlah type aku. Aku judge based on what I see n observe. Ape yg aku xnmpk n xtau tu aku xde hak nk comment. So bile org cter pasal keburukan dia, aku dengar. Aku sendiri pun xberapa suka cara dia tp dsbbkan kitorang satu "company", aku xleh la nk diskrimanasi sgt... Cume lepas nieh aku akan lebih berhati2 la kalau lepak dgn dia. My professional ethic says that u shud separate personal life and work issues so that u can be more proactive. So utk kepentingan aku dan "company" nieh. So aku rasa aku ignore je perangai buruk dia tu nk keeep working on this. Member aku sorang lg da kuar dari "company" nieh sbb mungkin dia look up sgt kat mamat nieh..and xleh trima bila kaca tu dipecahkan.. hahahaha.. as for me, aku rasa, semua org ade dark side masing2 so why judge others when u urself is cant be judge???

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Slippery Slope

-situation 1-
Ok, korang tgh tunggu bas kat bas stop. Then ade sorang mamat ni dtg kat korang mintak sedekah.. Niat korang memang nk bersedekah.. Korang seluk poket nk amek dompet. Mamat td da tunggu dengan penuh harapan, then bile korang check2 dompet. ade note 50rm, 10rm, 5rm. tp korang nk bg singgit je.. ape korang wat???

-situation 2-
Korang still kat bas stop, then ade sorang pakcik datang.. Dia conform nk mintak duit tp ni jenis bercerita. Dia pun cerita la.. dia baru keluar penjara, nk jumpe anak bini.. ade HIV.. nk naik bas xcukup duit. Korang akan??

How To Love 101

You can never teach a person how to love.. It is human instinct. You can never tell a person what to say to their mates.. It comes naturally..

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Perlukah?

Perlu ke kau cakap bende2 tu semua kat aku???

Crappy Situation

Ok.. Why must people be so self centered?? It's not like we don't help them? It's not like we do the same thing to them? Being selfless is always who I am.sometimes. Ok, sometimes people may see that I am selfish by trying to make use of others to benefit me, but if you look at my perspective.. Then you'll see that I'm just helping them to be more generous. Right? lol. Ok, the thing is i am not talking about myself here. I am talking about another person from another unrelated universe in this vasts multiverse. the thing I hate most is when

1. You help someone not hoping for anything but when ur in need of them, they didn't get a clue.
2. You have always been too kind and generous and dislike to make problems worst but when it comes to you, they tend to exaggerate a lot about your bad habits despite the fact that you ignore their bad habit to avoid any misunderstanding.
3. You know the limit. They don't.
4. It seems like you're the only person that doesn't care about your habitat's condition. When all they do is-NOTHING.
5. When your belongings is in a mess, they talk. When their belonging is in a mess, they talk about yours and how you didn't tidy up.

This is the least I can say on this.